I am writing this post while glancing at Rebecca rehearsing one of her dance pieces for an upcoming conference. The music she is playing is an instrumental version of the song “Sabbath Prayer” from the show “Fiddler on the Roof.” The lyrics to the song run through my mind as I listen to the melody. The phrase that keeps repeating over and over in my head is “may the Lord protect and defend you. May He always shield you from shame.” The key words for me, here, are protect, defend, and shield.
When I was in my twenties, I felt like I was invincible. I was smart, in control, and slightly arrogant. In my youthful naivety, I thought I would conquer the world all on my own. It didn’t quite work out that way. I’m not complaining, because I have been blessed in life. I’m just saying that things are very different from what I had originally planned for myself. Life’s tests have a way of changing those youthful mindsets. I also finally realized I couldn’t control my life’s circumstances on my own.
I am probably focusing on all this because since the accident I had last year (see the post from “An Unexpected Revelation“), I noticed I was becoming more fearful than I had ever been before. (This was one of life’s tests that was changing me, and not for the better.) During the first month after the accident, I was actually afraid to get out of bed in the morning for fear I might somehow sustain another injury. At night, I would have dreams about getting hurt in another accident. If there was snow on the ground when I went out, I would literally tremble for fear I would fall again. No kidding, I was really having fear around this issue. I know I am not the bravest person in the world, but I was never this fearful either.
I knew I needed some help because I was not moving in a good direction on this issue. I decided to look back into our post about the topic of fear to get some advice. I knew we had not given a guaranteed formula for defeating fear. But, we had offered some practical Bible based solutions to the problem. As I reviewed the post on fear, I realized I needed to bring the problem back to God for help. Lately, it seems that whatever life throws my way, I always end up back on God’s doorstep. I’ve learned there is no better place I can be.
You see, my thinking has radically changed from my youth. I know there’s just no way to conquer the many challenges that I encounter in life solo. (For me, that means without God’s help.) I’ve tried many other solutions the world has to offer. I found only temporary resolutions, if any at all. With God, I am able to establish permanent results. I am constantly amazed at how many of life’s problems are addressed in the Bible. Throughout that one book, I always find answers. I knew it was the place to go about this latest issue I was having with fear. I was not wrong about that.
As I addressed these newfound fears, I found so many places in the Bible where I saw how God protects me. For instance, I love the promises in Psalm 91. Some of my favorite lines from that psalm are:
Because you have made the Lord your refuge,
Even the Most High, your dwelling place,
No evil shall befall you,
Nor shall any plague come near your dwelling.
Because he has loved Me, therefore I will deliver him;
He shall call upon Me, and I will answer him;
I will be with him in trouble;
I will deliver him and honor him.
These words speak directly to me of protection from God. They comfort me. I have gotten into the habit of saying Psalm 91 pretty regularly over myself. When I say the words to Psalm 91 out loud, I actually feel God putting His arms around me to protect me. It’s a great feeling.
And how about Psalm 18 for quieting fear:
“The Lord is my rock and my fortress and my deliverer. My God in whom I take refuge.”
It doesn’t get any clearer than that. If I seek Him, God protects me. As I read these words along with other passages of protection, I find that I am becoming convinced again that I am safe. Fear is diminishing; trust in God’s protection is growing. I am rebounding from fear into security. As of this writing, I am seeing great strides in my attitude towards defeating fear. I’ll continue on this path, because I know things will only get better!
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